THE
TASTE OF INNOCENCE - EXCERPT
CHAPTER 1
February,
1833
Northwest of Combe Florey, Somerset
He
had to marry, so he would.
But
on his terms.
The
latter words resonated through Charlie Morwellan's mind, repeating
to the thud of his horse's hooves as he cantered steadily
north. The winter air was crisp and clear. About him the lush
green foothills of the western face of the Quantocks rippled
and rolled. He'd been born to this country, at Morwellan Park,
his home, now a mile behind him, yet he paid the arcadian
views scant heed, his mind relentlessly focused on other vistas.
He
was lord and master of the fields about him, filling the valley
between the Quantocks to the east and the western end of the
Brendon Hills. His lands stretched south well beyond the Park
itself to where they abutted those managed by his brother-in-law,
Gabriel Cynster. The northern boundary lay ahead, following
a rise; as his dappled grey gelding, Storm, crested it, Charlie
drew rein and paused, looking ahead yet not really seeing.
Cold
air caressed his cheeks. Jaw set, expression impassive, he
let the reasons behind his present direction run through his
mind-one last time.
He'd
inherited the earldom of Meredith on his father's death three
years previously. Both before and since he'd ducked and dodged
the inevitable attempts to trap him into matrimony. Although
the prospect of a wealthy, now over thirty-years-old as-yet-unwed
earl kept the matchmakers perennially salivating, after a
decade in the ton he was awake to all their tricks; time and
again he slipped free of their nets, taking a cynical male
delight in so doing.
Yet
for Lord Charles Morwellan, 8th Earl of Meredith, matrimony
itself was inescapable.
That,
however, wasn't the spur that had finally pricked him into
action.
Nearly
two years ago his closest friends, Gerrard Debbington and
Dillon Caxton, had both married. Neither had been looking
for a wife, neither had needed to marry, yet fate had set
her snares and each had happily walked to the altar; he'd
stood beside them there and known they'd been right to seize
the moment.
Both
Gerrard and Dillon were now fathers.
Storm
shifted, restless; absentmindedly Charlie patted his neck.
Connected
via their links to the powerful Cynster clan, he, Gerrard
and Dillon, and their wives Jacqueline and Priscilla, had
met as they always did after Christmas at Somersham Place,
principal residence of the Dukes of St. Ives and ancestral
home of the Cynsters. The large family and its multifarious
connections met biannually there, at the so-called Summer
Celebration in August and again over the festive season, the
connections joining the family after spending Christmas itself
with their own families.
He'd
always enjoyed the boisterous warmth of those gatherings,
yet this time…it hadn't been Gerrard's and Dillon's children
per se that had fed his restlessness but rather what they
represented. Of the three of them, friends for over a decade,
he was the one with a recognized duty to wed and produce an
heir. While theoretically he could leave his brother Jeremy,
now twenty-three, to father the next generation of Morwellans,
when it came to family duty he'd long ago accepted that he
was constitutionally incapable of ducking. Letting one of
the major responsibilities attached to the position of earl
devolve onto Jeremy's shoulders was not something his conscience
or his nature, his sense of self, would allow.
Which
was why he was heading for Conningham Manor.
Continuing
to tempt fate, courting the risk of that dangerous deity stepping
in and organizing his life, and his wife, for him, as she
had with Gerrard and Dillon, would be beyond foolish; ergo
it was time for him to choose his bride. Now, before the start
of the coming season, so he could exercise his prerogative,
choose the lady who would suit him best, and have the deed
done, final and complete, before society even got wind of
it.
Before
fate had any further chance to throw love across his path.
He
needed to act now to retain complete and absolute control
over his own destiny, something he considered a necessity,
not an option.
Storm
pranced, infected with his underlying impatience. Subduing
the powerful gelding, he focused on the landscape ahead. A
mile away, comfortably nestled in a dip, the slate roofs of
Conningham Manor rose above the naked branches of its orchard.
Weak morning sunlight glinted off diamond-paned windows; a
chill breeze caught the smoke drifting from the tall Elizabethan
chimney pots and whisked it away. There'd been Conninghams
at the Manor for nearly as long as there'd been Morwellans
at the Park.
Charlie
stared at the manor for a minute more, then stirred, eased
Storm's reins, and cantered down the rise.
*
* *
"Regardless,
Sarah, Clary and I firmly believe that you have to marry first."
Seated
facing the bow window in the back parlor of Conningham Manor,
the undisputed domain of the daughters of the house, Sarah
Conningham glanced at her sixteen-year-old sister Gloria,
who stared pugnaciously at her from her perch on the window
seat.
"Before
us." The clarification came in determined tones from
seventeen-year-old Clara - Clary - seated beside Gloria and
likewise focused on Sarah and their relentless pursuit to
urge her into matrimony.
Stifling
a sigh, Sarah looked down at the ribbon trim she was unpicking
from the neckline of her new spencer, and with unimpaired
calm set about reiterating her well-trod arguments. "You
know that's not true. I've told you so, Twitters has told
you so, and mama has told you so. Whether I marry or not will
have no effect whatever on your come-outs." Freeing the
last stitch, she tugged the ribbon away, then shook out the
spencer. "Clary will have her first season next year,
and you, Gloria, will follow the year after."
"Yes
but, that's not the point." Clary fixed Sarah with a
frown. "It's the…the way of things."
When
Sarah cocked a questioning brow at her, Clary blushed and
rushed on, "It's the unfulfilled expectations. Mama and
Papa will be taking you to London in a few weeks for your
fourth season. It's obvious they still hope you'll attract
the notice of a suitable gentleman. Both Maria and Angela
accepted offers in their second season, after all."
Maria
and Angela were their older sisters, twenty-eight and twenty-six-years-old,
each married and living with their husbands and children on
said husbands' distant estates. Unlike Sarah, both Maria and
Angela had been perfectly content to marry gentlemen of their
station with whom they were merely comfortable, given those
men were blessed with fortunes and estates of appropriate
degree.
Both
marriages were the conventional norm; neither Maria nor Angela
had ever considered any other prospect, let alone dreamed
of it.
As
far as Sarah knew, neither had Clary or Gloria. At least,
not yet.
She
suppressed another sigh. "I assure you I will happily
accept should an offer eventuate from a gentleman I can countenance
being married to. However, as that happy occurrence seems
increasingly unlikely" - she gave passing thanks that
neither Clary nor Gloria had any notion of the number of offers
she'd received and declined over the past three years - "I
assure you I'm resigned to a spinster's life."
A
massive overstatement, but…. Sarah flicked a glance at the
fourth occupant of the room, her erstwhile governess, Miss
Twitterton, fondly known as Twitters, seated in an armchair
to one side of the wide window. Now in middle-age, Twitters's
gray head was bent over a piece of darning; she gave no sign
of following the familar discussion.
If
she couldn't imagine being happy with a life like Maria's
or Angela's, Sarah could equally not imagine being content
with a life like Twitters's.
Gloria
made a rude sound. Clary looked disgusted. The pair exchanged
glances, then embarked on a verbal catalogue of what they
considered the most pertinent criteria for defining a "suitable
gentleman," one to whom Sarah would countenance being
wed.
Folding
her new spencer with the too-garish scarlet ribbon now removed,
Sarah smiled distantly and let them ramble. She was sincerely
fond of her younger sisters yet the gap between her twenty-three
years and their ages was, in terms of the present discussion,
a significant gulf.
They
naïvely considered marriage a simple matter easily decided
on a list of definable attributes, while she had seen enough
to appreciate how unsatisfactory such an approach often was.
Most marriages in their circle were indeed contracted on the
basis of such criteria - and the vast majority, underpinned
by nothing stronger than mild affection, degenerated into
hollow relationships in which both partners turned elsewhere
for comfort.
For
love.
Such
as love, in such circumstances, could be. Somehow less, somehow
tawdry.
For
herself, she'd approached the question of marriage with an
open mind, and open eyes. No one had ever deemed her rebellious,
yet she'd never been one to blindly follow others' dictates,
especially on topics of personal importance. So she'd looked,
and studied.
She
now believed that when it came to marriage there was something
better than the conventional norm. Something finer; an ideal,
a commitment that compelled one to grasp it, a state glorious
enough to fill the heart with yearning and need, and ultimately
with satisfaction, a construct in which love existed within
the bonds of matrimony rather than outside them.
And
she'd seen it. Not in her parents' marriage, for that was
a conventional if successful union, one without passion but
based instead on affection, duty and common cause. But to
the south lay Morwellan Park, and beyond that Casleigh, the
home of Lord Martin and Lady Celia Cynster, and now also home
to their elder son, Gabriel, and his wife, Lady Alathea née
Morwellan.
Sarah
had known Alathea, Gabriel, and his parents for all of her
life. Alathea and Gabriel had married for love; Alathea had
waited until she was twenty-nine before Gabriel had come to
his senses and claimed her as his bride. As for Martin and
Celia, they had eloped long ago in a statement of passion
impossible to mistake.
Sarah
met both couples frequently. Her conviction that a love-match,
for want of a better title, was a goal worthy of her aspiration
derived from what she'd observed between Gabriel and Alathea
and, once her wits had been sharpened and her eyes had grown
accustomed, from the older and somehow deeper and stronger
interaction between Martin and Celia.
She
freely admitted she didn't know what love was, had no concept
of what the emotion would feel like within a marriage. Yet
she'd seen evidence of its existence in the quality of a smile,
in the subtle meeting of eyes, the gentle touch of a hand.
A caress outwardly innocent yet laden with meaning.
When
it was there, love colored such moments. When it wasn't….
But
how did one define that love?
And
did it mysteriously appear, or did one need to work for it?
How did it come about?
She
had no answers, not even a glimmer, hence her unwed state.
Despite her sisters' trenchant beliefs, there was no reason
she needed to marry. And if the emotion that infused the Cynsters'
marriages was not part of an offer made to her, then she doubted
any man, no matter how wealthy, how handsome or charming,
could tempt her to surrender her hand.
To
her, marriage without love held no attraction. She had no
need of a union devoid of that finer glory, devoid of passion,
yearning, need and satisfaction. She had no reason to accept
a lesser union.
"You
will promise to look, won't you?"
Sarah
glanced up to find Gloria leaning forward, brown brows beetling
at her.
"Properly,
I mean."
"And
that you'll seriously consider and encourage any likely gentleman,"
Clary added.
Sarah
blinked, then laughed and sat up to lay aside her spencer.
"No, I will not. You two are far too impertinent - I'm
sure Twitters agrees."
She
glanced at Twitters to find the governess, whose ears were
uncommonly sharp, peering myopically out of the window in
the direction of the front drive.
"Now
who is that, I wonder?" Twitters squinted past Clary,
who swiveled to look out, as did Gloria. "No doubt some
gentleman come to call on your papa."
Sarah
looked past Gloria. Blessed with excellent eyesight, she instantly
recognized the horseman trotting up the drive, but surprise
and a frisson of unnerving reaction - something she felt whenever
she first saw him - stilled her tongue.
"It's
Charlie Morwellan," Gloria said. "I wonder what
he's doing here."
Clary
shrugged. "Probably to see Papa about the hunting."
"But
he's never here for the hunting," Gloria pointed out.
"These days he spends almost all his time in London.
Augusta said she hardly ever sees him."
"Maybe
he's staying in the country this year," Clary said. "I
heard Lady Castleton tell Mama that he's going to be hunted
without quarter this season from the absolute intsant he returns
to town."
Sarah
had heard the same thing, but she knew Charlie well enough
to predict that he would be no easy quarry. She watched as
he drew rein at the edge of the forecourt and swung lithely
down from the back of his gray hunter.
The
breeze ruffled elegantly cropped golden locks. His morning
coat of brown Bath superfine was the apogee of some London
tailor's art, stretching over broad shoulders before tapering
to hug his lean waist and narrow hips. His linen was pristine
and precise; his waistcoat, glimpsed as he moved, was a subtle
medley of browns and black. Buckskin breeches molded to long
powerful legs before disappearing into glossy black Hessians,
completing a picture that might have been titled: Fashionable
Peer in the Country.
Irritation
stirring, Sarah drank in the vision; his appearance - and
its ridiculous effect on her - really wasn't fair. He knew
she existed, but beyond that…. From this distance, she couldn't
see his features clearly, yet her besotted memory filled in
the details-the classic lines of brow, nose and chin, the
aristocratic angles and planes, the patriarchal cast of high
cheekbones, the large heavy-lidded, lushly-lashed blue eyes,
and the distracting, frankly sensual mouth and mobile lips
that allowed his expression to change from delightfully charming
to ruthlessly dominating in the blink of an eye.
She'd
studied that face - and him - for years. She'd never known
him to appear other than he was, a wealthy aristocrat descended
from Norman lords with a streak of Viking thrown in. Despite
his aura of ineffable control, of being born to rule without
question, a hint of the unpredictable warrior remained, lurking
beneath his smooth surface.
A
stable boy came running. Charlie handed over his reins, spoke
to the lad, then turned for the front door. As he passed out
of their sight around the central wing, Clary and Gloria uttered
identical sighs and turned back to face the room.
"He's
really top of the trees, isn't he?"
Sarah
doubted Clary required an answer.
"Gertrude
Riordan said that in town he drives the most fabulous pair
of matched grays." Gloria bounced, eyes alight. "I
wonder if he drove them home? He would have, don't you think?"
While
her sisters discussed various means of ascertaining whether
Charlie's vaunted matched pair were at Morwellan Park, Sarah
watched the stable boy lead Charlie's hunter off to the stables
rather than walk the horse in the forecourt. Whatever Charlie's
reasons for calling, he expected to be there for some little
while.
Her
sisters' voices filled her ears; recollections of their earlier
comments whirled kaleidoscopically-to settle, abruptly, into
an unexpected pattern. Leading to a startling thought.
Another
frisson, different, more intense, slithered down Sarah's spine.
*
* *
"Well,
m'boy - " Lord Conningham broke off and laughingly grimaced
at Charlie. "Daresay I shouldn't call you that anymore,
but it's hard to forget how long I've known you."
Seated
in the chair before the desk in his lordship's study, Charlie
smiled and waved the comment aside. Lord Conningham was a
bluff, good-natured man, one with whom Charlie felt entirely
comfortable.
"For
myself and her ladyship," Lord Conningham continued,
"I can say without reservation that we're both honored
and delighted by your offer. However, as a man with five daughters,
two already wed, I have to tell you that their decisions are
their own. It's Sarah herself whose approval you'll have to
win, but on that score I know of nothing whatever that stands
between you and your goal."
After
a fractional hesitation, Charlie clarified, "She has
no interest in any other gentleman?"
"No."
Lord Conningham grinned. "And I would know if she had.
Sarah's never been one to play her cards close to her chest.
If any gentleman had captured her attention, her ladyship
and I would know of it."
The
door opened; Lord Conningham looked up. "Ah, there you
are, m'dear. I hardly need to introduce you to Charlie. He
has something to tell us."
With
a smile, Charlie rose to greet Lady Conningham, a sensible,
well-bred female he could with nothing more than the mildest
of qualms imagine as his mother-in-law.
*
* *
Ten
minutes later, her wits in a whirl, Sarah left her bedchamber
and hurried to the main stairs. A footman had brought a summons
to join her mother in the front hall. She'd detoured via her
dressing table, dallying just long enough to reassure herself
that her gown of fine periwinkle blue wool wasn't rumpled,
that the lace edging the neckline hadn't crinkled, that her
browny-blond hair was neat in its knot at the back of her
head and not too many strands had escaped.
Quite
a few had, but she didn't have time to let her hair down and
redo the knot. Besides, she only needed to be neat enough
to pass muster in case Charlie saw her in passing; it was
too early for him to be staying for luncheon and there was
no reason to imagine that her mother's summons was in any
way connected with his visit…other than the ridiculous suspicion
that had flared in her mind and set her heart racing. Reaching
the head of the stairs, she started down, her stomach a hard
knot, her nerves jangling.
All
for nothing, she chided herself. It was a nonsensical supposition.
Her
slippers pattered on the treads; her mother appeared from
the corridor beside the stairs. Sarah's gaze flew to her face,
willing her mother to speak and explain and ease her nerves.
Instead,
her mother's countenance, already wreathed in a glorious smile,
brightened even more. "Good. You've tidied." Her
mother scanned her, comprehensively from her forehead to her
toes, then beamed and took her arm.
Entirely
at sea, her questions in her eyes, Sarah let her mother draw
her a few yards down the corridor to where an alcove nestled
under the stairs.
Releasing
her arm, her mother clasped her hand and squeezed her fingers.
"Well, my dear, the long and short of this is that Charlie
Morwellan wishes to offer for your hand."
Sarah
blinked; for one instant, her mind literally reeled.
Her
mother smiled, not unsympathetically. "Indeed, it's a
surprise, quite out of the blue, but heaven knows you've dealt
with offers enough-you know the ropes. As always the decision
is yours, and your father and I will stand by you regardless
of what that decision might be." Her mother paused. "However,
in this case both your father and I would ask that you consider
very carefully. An offer from any earl would command extra
attention, but an offer from the 8th Earl of Meredith warrants
even deeper consideration."
Sarah
looked into her mother's dark eyes. Quite aside from her pleasure
over Charlie's offer, in advising her in this, her mother
was very serious.
"My
dear, you already have sufficient comprehension of Charlie's
wealth. You know his home, his standing - you know of him,
although I accept that you do not know him, himself, well.
But you do know his family."
Taking
both her hands, her mother lightly squeezed, her excitement
returning. "With no other gentleman have you had, nor
will you have, such a close prior connection, such a known
foundation on which you might build. It's an unlooked-for,
entirely unexpected opportunity, yes, but a very good one."
Her
mother searched her eyes, trying to read her reaction. Sarah
knew all she would see was confusion.
"Well."
Her mother's lips set just a little; her tone became more
brisk. "You must hear him out. Listen carefully to what
he has to say, then you must make your decision."
Releasing
her hands, her mother stepped back, reached up and tweaked
Sarah's neckline, then nodded. "Very well. You must go
in - he's waiting in the drawing room. As I said, your father
and I will accept whatever decision you make. But please,
do think very carefully about Charlie."
Sarah
nodded, feeling numb. She could barely breathe. Turning from
her mother, she walked, slowly, toward the drawing room door.
*
* *
Charlie
heard a light footstep beyond the door. He turned from the
window as the door knob turned, watched as the door opened
and the lady he'd chosen to be his wife entered.
She
was of average height, subtly but sensuously curved; her slenderness
made her appear taller than she was. Her face was heart-shaped,
framed by the soft fullness of her lustrous hair, an eye-catching
shade of gilded light brown. Her features were delicate, her
complexion flawless-including, to his mind, the row of tiny
freckles across the bridge of her nose. A wide brow, that
straight nose, arched brown brows and long lashes combined
with rose-tinted lips and a sweetly curved chin to complete
a picture of restful loveliness.
Her
gaze was unusually direct; he waited for her to move, knowing
that when she did it would be with innate grace.
Her
hand on the door knob, she paused, scanning the room.
His
eyes narrowed slightly. Even across the distance he sensed
her uncertainty, yet when her gaze found him she hesitated
for only a second before, without looking away, she closed
the door and came toward him.
Calmly,
serenely, but with her hands clasping, fingers twining.
She
couldn't have expected this; he'd given her no indication
that marrying her had ever entered his head. The last time
they'd met socially, at the Hunt Ball last November, he'd
waltzed with her once, remained by her side for fifteen minutes
or so, exchanging the usual pleasantries, and that had been
all.
Deliberately
on his part. He'd known - for years if he stopped to consider
it - that she…regarded him differently. That it would be
very easy, with just a smile and a few words, for him to awaken
an infatuation in her, a fascination with him. Not that she'd
ever been so gauche as to give the slightest sign, yet he
was too attuned to women, certainly, it seemed, to her, not
to know what quivered just beneath her cool, clear surface,
the sensible serenity she showed to the world. He'd made a
decision, not once but many times over the years, that it
wouldn't do to stir that pool, to ripple her surface. She
was, after all, sweet Sarah, a neighbor's daughter he'd known
all her life.
So
he'd been careful not to do what his instincts had so frequently
prompted. He'd studiously treated her as just another young
lady of his local acquaintance.
Yet
when he'd finally decided to select a wife, one face had leapt
to his mind. He hadn't even had to think-he'd simply known
that she was his choice.
And
then, of course, he had thought, and visited all the arguments,
the numerous criteria a man like him needed to evaluate in
selecting a wife. The exercise had only confirmed that Sarah
Conningham was the perfect candidate.
She
halted before him, confidently facing him with less than two
feet between them. Confusion shadowed her eyes, a delicate
blue the color of a pale cornflower, as she searched his face.
"Charlie."
She inclined her head. To his surprise, her voice was even,
steady if a trifle breathless. "Mama said you wished
to speak with me."
Head
high so she could continue to meet his gaze - the top of her
head barely reached his chin - she waited.
He
felt his lips curve, entirely spontaneously. No fuss, no fluster,
and no "Lord Charles," either. They'd never stood
on formality, not in any circumstances, and for that he was
grateful.
Despite
her outward calm, he sensed the brittle, expectant tension
that held her, that kept her breathing shallow. Respect stirred,
unexpected but definite, yet was he really surprised that
she had more backbone than the norm?
No;
that, in part, was why he was there.
The
urge to reach out and run his fingertips across her collarbone-just
to see how smooth the fine alabaster skin was-struck unexpectedly;
he toyed with the notion for a heartbeat, but rejected it.
Such an action wasn't appropriate given the nature of what
he had to say, the tone he wished to maintain.
"As
I daresay your mother mentioned, I've asked your father's
permission to address you. I would like to ask you to do me
the honor of becoming my wife."
He
could have dressed up the bare words in any amount of platitudes,
but to what end? They knew each other well, perhaps not in
a private sense, but his sisters and hers were close; he doubted
there was much in his general life of which she was unaware.
And
there was nothing in her response to suggest he'd gauged that
wrongly, even though, after the briefest of moments, she frowned.
"Why?"
It
was his turn to feel confused.
Her
lips tightened and she clarified, "Why me?"
Why
now? Why after all these years have you finally deigned to
do more than smile at me? Sarah kept the words from her tongue,
but looking up into Charlie's impassive face, she felt an
almost overpowering urge to sink her hands into her hair,
pull loose the neatly arranged tresses, and run her fingers
through them while she paced. And thought. And tried to understand.
She
couldn't remember a time when she hadn't had to, every time
she first set eyes on him, pause, just for a second, to let
her senses breathe. To let them catch their breath after it
had been stolen away simply by his presence. Once the moment
passed, as it always did, then all she had to do was battle
to ensure she did nothing foolish, nothing to give away her
secret obsession - infatuation - with him.
It
was nonsense and brought her nothing but aggravation, but
no amount of lecturing over its inanity had ever done an ounce
of good. She'd decided it was simply the way she reacted to
him, Viking-Norman adonis that he was. She'd reluctantly concluded
that her reaction wasn't her fault. Or his. It just was; she'd
been born this way, and she simply had to deal with it.
And
now here he was, without so much as a proper smile in warning,
asking for her hand.
Wanting
to marry her.
It
didn't seem possible. She pinched her thumb, just to make
sure, but he remained before her, solid and real, the heat
of him, the strength of him wrapping about her in pure masculine
temptation, even if now he was frowning, too.
His
lips firmed, losing the intoxicating curve that had softened
them. "Because I believe we'll deal exceptionally well
together." He hesitated, then went on, "I could
give you chapter and verse about our stations, our families,
our backgrounds, but you already know every aspect as well
as I. And" - his gaze sharpened - "as I'm sure you
understand, I need a countess."
He
paused, then his lips quirked. "Will you be mine?"
Nicely
ambiguous. Sarah stared into his gray-blue eyes, a paler shade
of blue than her own, and heard again in her mind her mother's
words: Think very carefully about Charlie.
She
searched his eyes, and accepted that she'd have to, that this
time her answer wasn't so clear. She'd lost count of the times
she'd faced a gentleman like this and framed an answer to
that question, couched though it had been in many different
ways. Never before had she even had to think of the crux of
her reply, only the words in which to deliver it.
This
time, facing Charlie….
Still
holding his gaze, she compressed her lips fleetingly, drew
in a breath and let it out with, "If you want my honest
answer, then that honest answer is that I can't answer you,
not yet."
His
dark gold lashes, impossibly thick, screened his eyes for
an instant; when he again met her gaze his frown was back.
"What do you mean? When will you be able to answer?"
Aggression
reached her, reined but definitely there. Unsurprised - she
knew his charm was nothing more than a veneer, that under
that glossy surface he was stubborn, even ruthless - she studied
his eyes, and unexpectedly found answers to two of the many
questions crowding her mind. He did indeed want her - specifically
her - as his wife. And he wanted her soon.
Quite
what she was to make of that last, she wasn't sure. Nor did
she know how much trust she could place in the former.
She
was aware that he expected her to back away from his veiled
challenge, to temporize, to in one way or another back down.
She smiled tightly and lifted her chin. "In answer to
your first question, you know perfectly well that I had no
warning of your offer. I had no idea you were even thinking
of such a thing. Your proposal has come entirely out of the
blue, and the simple fact is I don't know you well enough"
- she held up a hand - "regardless of our long acquaintance
- and don't pretend you don't know what I mean - to be able
to answer you yay or nay."
She
paused, waiting to see if he would argue. When he simply waited,
lips even thinner, his gaze razor sharp and locked on her
eyes, she continued, "As for your second question, I'll
be able to answer you once I know you well enough to know
which answer to give."
His
eyes bored into hers for a long moment, then he stated, "You
want me to woo you."
His
tone was resigned; she'd gained that much at least.
"Not
precisely. It's more that I need to spend time with you so
I can get to know you better." She paused, her eyes on
his. "And so you can get to know me."
That
last surprised him; he held her gaze, then his lips quirked
and he inclined his head.
"Agreed."
His voice had lowered. Now he was talking to her, with her,
no longer on any formal plane but on an increasingly personal
one, his tone had deepened, becoming more private. More intimate.
She
quelled a tiny shiver; at that lower note his voice reverberated
through her. She'd wanted to increase the space between them
for several minutes, but there was something in the way he
looked at her, the way his gaze held her, that made her hesitate,
as if to edge back would be tantamount to admitting weakness.
Like
fleeing from a predator. An invitation to…her mouth was
dry.
He'd
tilted his head, studying her face. "So how long do you
think getting to know each other better - well enough - will
take?"
There
was not a glint so much as a carefully veiled idea lurking
in the depths of his eyes that made her inwardly frown. She
was tempted to state that she had no intention of being swayed
by his undoubted, unquestioned, utterly obvious sexual expertise,
but that, like fleeing, might be seriously unwise. He'd all
too likely interpret such a comment as an outright challenge.
And
that was, she was certain, one challenge she couldn't meet.
She
hadn't, not for one moment, been able to - felt able to -
shift her gaze from his. "A month or two should be sufficient."
His
face hardened. "A week."
She
narrowed her eyes. "That's impossible. Four weeks."
He
narrowed his back. "Two."
The
word held a ring of finality she wished she could challenge
- wished she thought she could challenge. Lips set, she nodded.
Curtly. "Very well. Two weeks - and then I'll answer
you yay or nay."
His
eyes held hers. Although he didn't move, she felt as if he
leaned closer.
"I
have a caveat." His gaze, at last, shifted from her eyes,
drifting mesmerically lower. His voice deepened, becoming
even more hypnotic. "In return for me agreeing to a two-week
courtship, you will agree that once you answer and accept
my offer" - his gaze rose to her eyes - "we'll be
married by special licence no more than a week later."
She
licked her dry lips, started to form the word why.
He
stepped nearer. "Do you agree?"
Trapped
- in his gaze, by his nearness - she managed, just, to draw
in a breath. "Very well. If I agree to marry you, then
we can be married by special licence."
He
smiled - and she suddenly decided that no matter how he took
it, fleeing was an excellent idea. She tensed to step back.
Just
as his arm swept around her, and tightened.
His
eyes held hers as he drew her, gently but inexorably, into
his arms. "Our two-week courtship…remember?"
She
leaned back, keeping her eyes on his, her hands on his upper
arms. His strength surrounded her. She felt giddy. "What
of it?"
His
lips curved in a wholly masculine smile. "It starts now."
Then
he bent his head and covered her lips with his.
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